recently I've gone through a lot of bad luck.... I lost 2 friends to suicide this year
and I've been battling depression. on top of that i have a lot of heath problems
i'm hoping will be fixed. What am i suppose to think when a doctor comes in with
social worker just to give me bad news. doesn't sound good right!? it's not I possibly
have a foreign gene in my body that is cause my immune system to shut down on
top of than it is cause something severe. so I call my mom in tears and scared
and she tells me "Your brother is more important if he doesn't stop drinking and
smoking he'll die before this decease kills you." I just sat there...........shouldn't
a mother be there for her kids all of them or maybe i just don't know being i was
with out a family for many years. Anyways I want to tell my closest friends but
I'm just not ready I know they will support me but I don't want to panic anyone.
I feel so lost and unsure who to turn to. I'm sorry this is kinda a sad post but i
am at a bad turn in life
Sorry to anyone who actually reading this.